that beast nostalgia

Feeling nostalgic tonight. Missing my friends, and knowing that the missing will just get worse, because we are all scattering. Now I'm not only nostalgic, I am sad. This feeling just crept up on me. The "good old days" are gone, and now I am dealing with the ever-confusing present that can feel like walking on quicksand. I don't want to look back on memories and let them make me dissatisfied with the present. Nostalgia can be a beast.

I wonder if I will ever look back on this specific time in my life with nostalgia. Will I miss living at home, working a part-time job, and hanging out with my sister whenever I want? Yes, probably. I'll miss seeing Jenn and Michael (my Starbucks pals) all the time. They, especially Jenn, have been so loving and such a support right now. I know how much I care about people, but then when you realize that other people really care and love you too, it's almost overwhelming.

My goodness. I'm such a fuzzball. A nostalgic-beasty-fuzzball.