Thursday, August 23, 2007

guilty pleasures

Upon becoming a mother, it seems that I have given myself permission to indulge my guilty pleasures. I bashfully admit to repeatedly watching episodes of Buffy the Vampire Slayer, reading In Style magazine, eating McDonald's french fries, and belting out whatever sappy, ballad-y, worthy-of-being-played-on-Delilah's station love songs while driving alone in the car with the windows down.

Don't judge me.

I admit these things to you because 1) because I am tired and don't know how to keep my mouth shut, or rather, my fingers quiet 2) because confession cleanses the soul and 3) because I'm curious to know what everybody else's little indulgences are.

Well, that's enough of that.

I haven't gotten too far in Wilber's The Marriage of Sense and Soul, primarily because it is a book that requires a concentrated burst of my attention, and that comes few and far between these days. But, I did pick up an old book of poetry I have, Animal Soul, by Bob Hicok, and fell in love with it all over again. Here are a couple of lines from the opening poem in Animal Soul, "Whither Thou Goest":

Fish can have mad cow disease and I have a problem
with that...

I'm not ashamed to admit that my prayers are no longer
unconscious but loud and practiced
to the skin of the mirror to the muse
of the cereal box to the road as I drive...
...pushing veneration through my body makes god
exist if only for a second
within the chambered nuances of breath.

Yes, I did violence to the poem by breaking up the lines and taking some out of context, but hey, I'm allowed take a knife to the meat of words every once in awhile. It's like I'm cooking you my own word-y stew (sorry Bob). Anyhow, these few lines make me smile and sigh with something like relief. Just like admitting that even after Fast Food Nation I still enjoy french fries, and that I can occasionally be one of those obnoxious people who play annoying music in the car and roll their windows down so you can hear it too.

This may be self-involved, but my life is all about finding whatever relief I can get right now.

And that would include writing this post.

So, thanks for the indulgence.

And here's my parting shot...


Blogger Mike Morrell said...

There's our little girl! Should she be a model or what?

Ah, indulgence...the spice of life. We all need it now and again; what was the Oscar Wilde adage? All things in moderation, including moderation.

But, dear...we haven't seen Fast Food Nation yet. (I keep wanting to rent it! As well as read the not-very-related book) You're thinking of SuperSize Me. :)

8:26 PM  
Blogger April said...

Is she the cutest or what?! Jubi is ADORABLE and I still can't wait to meet her in person. And please don't feel bad about the indulgences--the main thing is to survive with a smile right now!

7:10 AM  
Blogger Jasmin said...

April! Do you have a blog? How have I missed it?! Hope you are feeling as well as can be expected...I can't wait to meet your new little one when she comes!

7:42 AM  
Blogger JD said...

I am ashamed to say it, but my guilty pleasure is Linkin Park. I wouldn't be caught dead with an album, but man I love singing along when that whiny, angsty teen music comes on the radio.

PS: I'm pretty sure that fish cannot get mad cow disease. Spongioform encephanlopathies are limited to mammals.

9:32 PM  
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